Next stage in mural at Infinity

The painting continues at Infinity music, finally I'm starting to see this smallish mural beginning to come to life. Stay tuned for more progress.

Circle trenches or miracle gardens?

"The oxen wear a yoke, like the calf yoke, but much bigger and heavier. A chain goes from the yoke to the sled. When the oxen walk forward, the yoke goes with them, and whatever is chained to the yoke has to come along too!
Jonas says, “get up!” to the oxen and starts for the woods." Text and image from hooftales.com

We all are one a spiritual pilgrimage. Sometimes we can feel closer or farther away from God, but as I get a bit older and hopefully wiser, I've begun to grasp how important it is to be yoked side by side with God as I travel down the road of life. It's quite likely that you've heard this well-know scripture in Matthew -

Matthew 11:28-30 (New International Version)

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Many times when I read this verse, I used to focus on the burden part and think, "How can a burden possibly be light and why is Jesus burden so different than mine?" It was necessary for me to do a little research on farming to unpack the intended meaning of this verse. A yoke is a tool used in farming were two cattle carry the load of their burden together. Imagine a single cow trying to carry a yoke intended for two cattle all by itself. No matter the effort the single animal would exert, it would simply walk itself a trench by going in circles. The single animal would not be able to accomplish its task with equipment that was built for a team to carry.

While independence and self-starting are skills that are often sought out and desired in our world today, I think there is something in this scripture that is trying to get our attention as individuals and as a faith community. If we insist on carrying our yokes alone, we will only end up running in circles. If we partner with Jesus by casting our burdens down, rest, and learn from Jesus example of gentleness and humbleness, our souls will be rested - not exhausted.

If you have ever trained for a race or prepared to go for a long hike, you know the value of starting out rested opposed to starting out on a trek already being exhausted. This yoking with Jesus is as necessary to our spiritual growth as sufficient rest, training, stretching and running shoes are to a runner. If we don't partner with Jesus, we'll end up exhausted, with shin splints and wearing solitary circle trenches in the ground.


Image from vi.sulizeus.com

In addition to being yoked with Christ, the faith community needs to better learn the value of being yoked with and to each other. In the small group (Holy Conversations) that meets at the church on Thursdays at noon, we've been taking time to share our own stories of faith and how God has worked in our lives. While all this discussion is a wonderful thing, there is also something quietly, mysteriously and I believe miraculously beginning to happen. As we tell our stories and share the joys and struggles that we've had occur over all our lifetimes, we are opening up our hearts to each other and beginning to become yoked together in Christ and in relation to each other as well. By opening up to each other its greater possible that in the moments that matter the most, that we are and continue to be there for each other. If we are truly a yoked Christian community we have have the opportunity to make, instead of break, the hard times that come and attempt to shake our faith in God and each other.

We all have had times of loss, illness, the passing of family and friends, the birth of children, the transition of those children growing up and leaving the nest, joys, successes, failures, and more changes that can be listed on all the pages of paper in the whole world. What if in all those times we were yoked to Jesus AND each other. What if, we always shared our burdens in a way that our spirits always reside in a place of rest?

There are times in my own life, times of challenge and sorrow, that Jesus sent just the right person through my doorway that understood my burden and helped me carry on until that burden was worked through. Without that partner to help with that burden, I might still be carrying it while making circle trenches and getting nowhere.


Image found at Trinitypastor@wordpress.com

When working in the world of farming, a garden could never be planted, grown and harvested without that initial process of yoking up two oxen, tilling up the soil and planting some seeds. In the world of ministry, it's just as important to team up with each other in order to till the soil and plant the seeds of salvation in our lives as well as the lives of those around us.

If it be Your will
If there is a choice
Let the rivers fill
Let the hills rejoice
Let your mercy spill
On all these burning heats in hell
If it be Your will
To make us well
And draw us near
And bind us tight
All your children here
In rags of light
In our rags of light

In the lyrics of the song, "If it be your will" by Leonard Cohen, I was struck by the theme of surrender, promise and community. Promise and surrender are things that a necessary for the journey as we yoke together and head out to the fields of harvest that God has already prepared for us. If only we will go to the field - not alone, but being yoked with Jesus and with each other. Side by side, what a harvest we could help to plant, tend and harvest if only we yoke up together and take a step on to new and exciting pastures.

Who will you yoke with? How will you plant your seeds? Those questions, I believe God will answer when we prayerfully ask - because a shared harvest surely is God's will.

Gregory Frank Harris painting "Golden Harvest" found at lee-ny.com.

Draw us near, and bind us tight, all your children here - yoke us to You and each other so that the garden will be planted and all the seeds of promise will grow to harvest and beyond.

Holy Conversations: I can't do it myself

Spiritual journey: I can't do it myself.
This essay is a response to an ongoing conversation and discussion of the book 'Holy Conversations' on Thursdays at First Lutheran Church in Jamestown NY and online at Facebook. I've carried out the prompts and my responses here as well if you'd like to join in on the conversation here as well. Thanks for listening and taking part in this holy conversation.


From a young age, I've had a very independent streak. When my parents would ask if I needed help with something, my most common response was, "I'd like to do it by myself." I don't know if I was trying to prove to my two older siblings that I was not so much a baby as they thought, but I was determined to make it on my own if I had to.

The funny thing about drawing close to God, is that it requires that all of us come to a point where we surrender. As I explained, I tend to not surrender very well. I like to be independent - but when I reach the end of my rope, I usually cry out to God. Sometimes as a kid, I'd pray to ask God to help me find my shoes, and usually I'd find them right after sending up a prayer.
Although I've grown in my faith since my child-like requests for my shoes, I do think I still have tendencies to want to 'do life myself'. I want to have it together, always be prepared, and never fail. But life often does not work that way.I've found a song called "One Small Voice" by the Sparks that captures this conflict of self-sufficiency and surrender to God.

Inside this heart is a fragile soul,
Inside this soul there is a fear,
that You won't love me if you could see me as I do.
So I try real hard to be a big success,
and then I see You are not impressed,
I don't know why - You probably see me as I do.

This one small voice is hear by only one,
This one small voice can tell about God's son,
This one small life can be useful indeed,
This one small heart can heart can start to understand,
Every effort I give is precious in his hand,
This one small life will bring glory to God.

You take the smallest opportunity to show you love me and you don't need
big displays to prove my love for you. I am small I simple too, and whatever you give it could not compare to what you've given me. I'll give my all to You.

This one small voice is hear by only one,
This one small voice can tell about God's son,
This one small life can be useful indeed,
This one small heart can heart can start to understand,
Every effort I give is precious in Your plan,
This one small life will bring glory to God.
It's Amazing.

Oh - one small voice.

How simple and yet how difficult it is to grow deeper in faith. This journey officially started as I grew up in church through my childhood. It was recharged in an experience of calling when I was seventeen and I've since then served in local mission and ministry ever since. For me it is a daily challenge to rely less on myself and hold fast to God as we journey together side-by-side on the road of life.
I suppose the whole point of the gospel is that we can't do "it" on our own. We need God and each other to make each step in the journey. One thing I'm learning on a daily basis, is that I need Jesus more and more with each step I take, not less. This might be what was meant by the verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

God knows I need that grace - I'm not so much that child saying, "I'd rather do it myself." - I'm that child saying "More please", with her empty hands reaching out for a little help, because now I know "I can't do it myself."

SWB: Don't be afraid

Today I went to look to see the host post at Sleeping with bread and found my blogging friend Mary Lue had posted some of my favorite scriptures as part of the focus for the week. Looking back, there were many times in the last week that fear was an issue for me. Either I was thinking about it, working my way around it and sometimes facing it and looking it straight in the eye. Thank you Mary Lue for reminding me that I'm not left alone to deal with the things that are fear for me. Thank you God for staying with me - always.

Isaiah 41:10

10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 43:1-5
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

3 For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
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4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.

5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.

The living water community mural: It came to pass

The mural project that Billy Torres, Kristen Briggs and I led and worked on with the help of many volunteers and community support was revealed on Friday February 12th, 2010. Thanks to Linda Gross for documenting this event on her Facebook and her blog. Its my hope that projects like this and ones in the future can help to bring a stronger sense of community, creativity and unity to Jamestown NY!