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Ouch!

Have you ever been at a place in life where you felt safe, secure and free and out of nowhere OUCH! a comment - even an innocent suggestion causes your heart and mind to recoil from the sting. Yeah, that is me.
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Ouch!
Why do those words cause such a spasm.
The reaction doesn't match their collection of:
content, context, and action.

These old wounds take longer to heal,
than I thought or suspected - so what's the deal?

Sting!
I suppose this is part of the process.
Part of the healing.
Healing isn't numbness.

These old wounds are making themselves known.
Why can't these feelings just leave me alone.

Band-aid.
What and who will be my protection?
Rest and patience are written for my prescription.

These old wounds are unpredictable like a charlie horse or
a funny bone - shocking and not so funny.

Ouch!
Coming back to life from the dead isn't painless.
Time is required for my resurrected heart to relearn how to listen, live and learn.
Knee jerk reactions are the first movement you see.
For a heart that once was captive, but now is living free.

(Photograph from www.vancourier.com/.../gallery1/gallery1a.html)

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